Make yourself at home: My little world’s inside, you’ll get to see where life has picked to bring me now. My table’s never set, my bed’s never made. This concrete’s almost laid, and I’ll be stuck in place…

Ehem, ehem ehem! Kind ladies, gentlemen and younger folks, We’re gathered today to celebrate yet another edition of the country’s favorite music show, Top of the Pops, edition of 2070-something. Look, I don’t care anymore, just play the song… Now, Why was I born last, and why am I, of all, ignored? As far as I can tell, I was born into a world where I can see all that I wanna see, but why would I believe in what I’ve never seen? In what I’m yet to see. And all my gifts that came straight from the sky Is this a naive state of mind? I’d realized right then, I might as well just blind myself! So take it all from me, and just fulfill your fantasies of what I’ve never seen, Advanced jet-fueled parenting! And washing what’s inside of me from the side of the place I used to work, it’s indescribably forever, banished here and force to lurk. It leaves me speechless to a degree you’ve never seen. Is the world there for me? If this is what it lets me see. As far as I can tell, it happens all the time, all the time! As far as I can tell, it happens all the time, all the time… I first bumped into you while we were walking at the beach, It’s not been very long, and I know this is a reach, but would you spend your whole, long life with me? One day we will believe in what we’ve never seen, in what we’re yet to see. I’ve been in viral lock-down for these last 24 years, I grow colder every day, yet you feel so very near, I mean how could life go on for me? If you’re not there to be, in my eternity. How could that be, believably? I can’t bare my numbers reaching 10 ’cause I don’t know what I’d do then, Is this a trial for me? Or some sick joke that I will never get, Protecting younger lives while acting violently is now required of me, What’s so hard to see? As far as I can tell, it happens all the time, all the time! As far as I can tell, it happens all the time, all the time…

Walking through the night alone in hopeless desperation, she’ll just creep back slowly to her bedroom where she’ll meet her comfort character. They have locked her in this bedroom, forcing her to watch in silence. Never want another childhood but, admit, it’s good when no one cared! Standing, side-by-side, sinusoidal tides, through my life they guide, waiting for another day when I may change, try and re-arrange, topological, I’m hysterical at best. She remembers all the hopes and dreams she’s trying to let go of. Never’d want another childhood but, admit, it sure was good back then! Walking through her nights alone in hopeless desperation, we can creep back slowly to her bedroom waiting for this comfort charac-. I am sure that deep within her there still shines that hope, that glimmer. But, her bedroom she’ll retreat, SO PLEASE, GIVE ME MY COMFORT CHARACTER. Standing, side-by-side, sinusoidal tides, through my life they guide, waiting for another day when I may change, try and re-arrange, topological, I’m hysterical at best.

I never found myself at home, but I can learn what I wanna know… At my school, ’cause I learn everything at homeschool. I met all of you at our school, homeschool, yet I don’t wanna be alone. Finding all the ways I can to wake up in the morning, I wanna revise my life, as I’ve done before, all these times, don’t you remember anything that we’ve learned, yeah? Maybe I’m just stupid, or I’m simply a kid. I’ve tried my best, I guess that just… Just wasn’t good enough, no I can’t hide it, how could I hide it? I MET ALL OF YOU AT- Homeschool, homeschool I can’t bare to be alone. (No no-no No no, No no-no no No,) I can’t bare to be alone. I’ve ran out of ways I can to wake up in the morning. I wanna reset, my life, get back all the years that I’ve lost, because I don’t remember learning at all, yeah? Maybe we can meet and share our notes after school we’ll try our best, I guess that just, just wasn’t good enough, no I can’t hide it, how could I hide it? I MET ALL OF YOU AT HOME.

I’m sorry I’m not strong I’m not like the other girls, yeah… I won’t get along, I won’t talk to them, I’m sorry! He’s always around, sometimes he touches me, but I don’t really mind… It’s nice to have somebody love me? BUT- LEAVE ME ALONE, NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE, DON’T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, ’CAUSE I DON’T WANNA BE AROUND MY MIND FOR LONG! I hate wearing these clothes, I want everyone to see that I’m so beautiful! Please don’t take me home… I simply can’t love God, cause he won’t return my calls now what am I to do? LEAVE ME ALONE, NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE, DON’T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, ’CAUSE I DON’T WANNA BE AROUND MY MIND FOR LONG!

Have a look where life has brought me now… Through the city, I will lead you to your special sound. Am I walking through my story? Let me take you to our town. I can’t be bound to my cavefolder now. And looking back… And looking back, I much prefer to be free.

I can’t believe it, alright? It’s yet another friday night, That I’ll just spend alone… WAITING FOR THE WORLD TO END IN FLAMES! And so “escape” with me, we can do just anything right here in pure modernity, what you “kinda loved” is vital now. And everywhere that’s unopinionated’s just a ploy of theirs. And everything and everyone that doesn’t like it’s in despair. I can’t believe it, alright? It’s yet another friday night, And I may be alone, at least I’m here with everything I want. I can’t believe it, alright? I’m exercising all my rights, I think I’m “happier” than I would be in Christian Anarchy. Please close that door to them, you wouldn’t want to risk it coming in. Wake up to stay up late, So you can be with all “favorite” things, But all my drugs just aren’t cutting it for me anymore. AM I EVEN HAPPIER? AM I EVEN HAPPIER LIKE THIIIIIIISSS? (Just can’t believe it, alright? No, I’m not strong enough to fight) (the cursed Satan that awaits beneath the floorboards of my room.) (I can’t believe it, alright? It’s yet another quiet night,) (Where I’m unsaveable, I’ll never be in Christian Anarchy.) OH GOD, HOW I WAS WRONG. OH GOD, HOW I WAS WRONG. Hope, not ignorance, I dropped the limerence. His love is tangible, his words immutable, I wanna build the world that he had made me see beyond contemporary, we’re in Catholic Anarchy! I can’t believe it, alright? It’s yet another friday night, that I won’t spend alone, I’m here with you, and everyone I love.

All I do is sing and paint and play in Jesus’ name, I don’t think that I’m crazy and I know you feel the same, so who’s to blame? My demon slurs and swears and stabs me with his fork, but he can try his best, because it’s never gonna work! Wesley Wills, Wesley Willis, Wesley Wills, Wesley Willis! Rockin’ over London, Rock on in Chicago, Rock ‘n’ Roll McDonald’s, so help me, Rock ‘n’ Roll will never die! Yeah sometimes I find it hard to sit still on the bus… Chicago devils come on down and have me make a fuss, but that’s not us! And while a schizophrenic’s what they’re callin’ me, life’s only nightmare hellride if you let it be! Wesley Wills, Wesley Willis, Wesley Wills, Wesley Willis! Rockin’ over London, Rock on in Chicago! Rock ‘n’ Roll McDonald’s, so help me, Rock ‘n’ Roll will never die! And yeah sometime I’ll die. I think today that I’ve completed my last hellride, Maybe I was far too young for this world to understand Just think to all of the adventures that I played along to in my head.

Bucky’s? Woah-oh-oh, well they got the best food there! I’ve wasted my life at Bucky’s! Woah-oh-oh, I might learn something new there. Life’s never been as Happy, woah-oh-oh, I’ve forgotten my vices, waiting in line at Bucky’s! Woah-oh-oh, and I know where my life is. Dining forever… And maybe it’s been too long, Of singing these stupid songs… There’s gotta be something, someone out there, someone all along. Maybe I’ll be too late, carrying all these plates… Don’t think that I just couldn’t make it, falling at this rate.

I lay waiting for my Spring Break to end, Maybe we could go and make ourselves a friend, instead of lying, stop crying. She is a witch, and she has a magic box, filled with pagan ruse, it’s mysteries lay unlocked to be seen. I will destroy her magic box… you cried all way through, yet another break. But it’s times like these, that I truly feel safe. Ambient dark noise fills our empty lungs, enlightening the day, to a quiet joy.

Rising through ashes, thinking of the time that awaits me. I’m just getting older. I’m just getting older. We’re all getting older, together. Thinking of when life went to pieces, scattering throughout all the hallways, windows that entrapped us: Soulmates. We’re all getting older. That’s just getting older. I’m just getting- Sand as it passes, pouring out the hand that I’m closing. I’m just getting older. I’m just getting older. We’re all getting older, together. Trying to remember, forever, Falling through these cloud storms together. I WANNA GET OLDER TOGETHER, I wanna get older. I wanna get older.

If we woke her up a little later, she wouldn’t be this mad. maybe we’ll make lunch today, like when we weren’t sad. That’s where you come from, Margot, that’s when you appeared. Right when it was dead with her, she’s never been as near… After every storm at midnight there comes a rainbow. Seven fiery colors raining through the skies, and right into my cloudy eyes! Oh my dear maman, how little did we know. When everything was false, how little did we know. Could we pop down to Windy Hill on our own today? I’m sure she’ll let us. Claude and Merlin will be waiting for us there. And we can go to the girl nest, we can do anything we want.